The Gryphon shut the door on us, and I kept the animals company while
our new couch was delivered.
Our new couch fits perfectly and is comfortable. It makes our living
room look decidedly nicer. One of the best aspects of it: when we return
after a long trip, we don't have to put the cushions back and straighten
out the couch cover. When Una lies on it, the cushions no longer move.
I spent some time this weekend working on Wild
Violet. Of course, I couldn't do as much as I wanted to on Sunday,
because I woke up with a migraine and spent half of the day recovering.
I also had some interesting dreams this weekend. Let me tell you about
a few.
In the most vivid of them, I was walking in suburban Philadelphia with
my camera and happened across a group of young people dressed in formal
wear. I surmised they were getting ready for a wedding. Two women were
apparently the bridesmaids, and they were wearing dramatic dresses that
reminded me of some I saw in the Faeriecon runway show. They had fitted
bodices with full-length pouffy skirts. The dresses were in two different
colors but seemed to go together.
The groomsmen, all of whom looked to be in their early 20s, wore retro
Victorian-looking suits in different neutral covers. A little boy, probably
the ring bearer, wore a similar suit, with a very ruffled shirt.
One young man seemed a bit more nervous than the rest, and his suit
was a little different, a little more modern. I surmised he was the
groom. They were all waiting around for the bride to arrive, no doubt.
As I approached, two young guys with long, bleached-blonde hair, wearing
jeans and T-shirts, were going off with a photographer to be photographed
for a record album. Somehow I knew that, while they were friends of
the wedding party, they weren't participating in the wedding.
There was no other photographer in sight, which is probably why, noticing
my camera, one of the groomsmen asked me when the pictures would be
ready. I told him I wasn't the person to ask. But since I had my camera,
I took some candid shots of the wedding party waiting for the wedding
to start.
Then, as if on cue, everyone broke into action, entering a nearby cottage-style
rowhouse, going down in the basement to a large community room for further
preparations. I caught the groom's attention and asked for his e-mail
address, promising to get him copies of the pictures. But I had to fumble
around in my camera bag for my business card, since I'd just been to
an event where I collected a lot of them, and I kept pulling out other
people's cards. Finally, I found one.
I wanted to make sure I'd be able to get him the photos, though, because
people often get really scattered after their wedding, so I still wanted
his e-mail address. I dug out a pen and a small notebook from my camera
bag (which would be nice things to carry in real life), and he wrote
down his addy for me. Only after he'd disappeared inside the building
did I realize that it was barely legible. Of course, this is not unusual
for a dream, when text is usually unreadable.
As far as dreams go, this was a fairly pleasant one. I happened into
a situation and made myself useful. I'm not sure what it means, except
that, being wedding related, it probably has something to do with me
wanting to get back to work on my
wedding book. Of course, I've postponed that for the time being
to finish the next issue of Wild Violet.
Another dream was far less detailed but left me with a far different
feeling. On Saturday evening, the same night I got a headache in the
middle of the night (not waking up to take pain medicine until morning),
I dreamt my sister was chastising me. She was calling me a fraud and
saying that I called myself a writer but didn't spend enough time working
on my writing. I started to cry, believing that she was right.
My sister and I are close, and often when I dream about her, she really
represents another aspect of myself. Clearly, I'm feeling my usual subconscious
anxiety of not achieving enough.
Honestly, I've been working towards all my short-term goals set in
January. Some will take longer than others. I think that I have every
reason to be optimistic about what I'll achieve this year.
In an unrelated dream, I had just fed Luke when another cat, a gray
tabby, arrived, happy and purring. I recognized her as a cat I owned
more than a decade ago, Squeaky. "I forgot that Squeaky was living
with us," I said to my husband, The Gryphon. Sadly, in the waking
world, Squeaky died by being run over by a car. Usually, when I dream
about someone who's dead, I realize they're dead in the dream. This
time, I didn't.
In the dream, Squeaky was young and healthy, her coat shining. It was
like I'd been given another chance.